Endings without Stories.

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 09:21:26 GMT

i have changed my link, because my url was just stupid.

http://64thhour.livejournal.com

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 06:01:09 GMT

hmmmm, haven't updated for a while, hmmm, my life has been nothing, as usual. hah, hi, i think my life is kinda shit now, i get scolding almost every night, from my parents, cause i went Marina yesterday& came back late, well, its kinda my fault, like whathell? today was the exams& i went out& study HISTORY, LOL, hmmm, today chinese, was quite amazing, my letter writing, i wrote the format first then i read the two question, i was like, wtf is thisssss? then i just copied both questions to make it seem like i wrote something, then i finsihed that one then i went to sleep, about 30 minutes later i woke up& read my compo questions& once again i was just, wtf is thissssss? then i just took one question& write the title, then i was like, how to wriiiite? then i went to sleep, about 15 minutes later, my chinese teachers knocked my table& asked me if i was okay, then he wanted to see my paper but i blocked him from taking it, then i was like, whathefuck la, how to do, then i wrote one sentence& went back to sleep till Mr. Tan collected the paper, huahua, erica, power riiight? hahhahahhahaha, i am a true idiot yo, but i alr no i have no hope in passing chinese, what for make more effort. ah, nevermind la, failure for life, in chinese (: welll, collected my clothes today, i was so damn happy, i can't wait to go out nowww, then i can like wear them! :D haha, a few days back i had a really weird conversation with my friend.

Me: Should i eat a spoon?
Friend: hmmm, metal or plastic?
Me: Metal.
Friend: hmm, teaspoon or tablespoon?
Me: hmmm, tsp.
Friend: hmmm, maybe you shouldn't cause your body can't digest it& you might get piles.
Me: oh ya, maybe i shouldn't well, gotta go, bye.

hi.

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 08:45:38 GMT

hmmmm, not feeling much now. some shitz around me keeps reminding me of * but i somehow hate/despise you now, but somehow, the totally opposite, idk whether i should be happy that you're like that& that i know everything or sad that you're like that& that i know everything, LOL, idk la, not important, you're the only one that can make me call a human a bastard, cause i never really use that term TRUTHFULLY on a human, you're so luck, hah, i know the letter i gave you was by far the most disgusting letter i've ever wrote, so crude& sacarstic, but somehow, you just fucking deserve it, i hate you, forveer& ever& ever laaaaa, so glad i have great epople in my life now, seriously, i, erica, curse you to death okay, motherfucker.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 07:11:29 GMT

i think i have a serious problem, i think i'm a loner, i think i'm hated by many many people, i think i'm a loser, i think that i'm like the biggest reject, i think even the nerds are the school are not as low as me, i think i regret going to Loyang, i think i shouldn't have been born, i think i should just die, i think i have no menaing in my life, i think i ahte everything, i think i'm an idiot, HAHA, i really need help, i've become so fxcking anti-social that peopel are actually avoiding me, well, some bastards made me this way, i should fxcking die, then i won't have to worry so much, i'll just let my dead rest in peace, just sleeping& never waking up, no worries, no tears, no hurtful stuffz, no nothing, just your soul floating around or something, haha, ye, i'd like that, thats a great escape (:

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 14:33:29 GMT

hmmmm, should be uplaoding a few stuffz from yesterday. i think, if this computer was fast enough, i want a laptop, i really do, LOL& today, was just another fxcked up day, but not as bad as i thought, PeiErn, my cousin left for Malaysia today, going back la, aiyo, she can't stay forever ): hmmmmm, i miss her, like alot, i think the only funny shit thing i could remember on the first day through out the trip was when we went onto the double decker bus heading to WS JiahJian was like so amazed as he has NEVERRRR, sat on one double decker bus before, then he started to like, overeact? LOL, LAZY POST LA, GO SEE PEIERN'S BLOG! http://www.yourinmyshoes.blogspot.com/

lights at the arthouse, the first thing that caught my attention.

Alice can sleep anywhere. i like this picture :B

escape.

keep walking,

O: alot of people left before i took this.

HAHAH, SORRY YO CLICK FIVE FANS, i just somehow despise them.

i like this picture like, v v v v much.

this picture just reminds me of silent hill, LOL.

ah, my favourite picture, even though its not symetrical enough.

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:02:57 GMT

o ther than posting about that bastard, went for a gig today at art house, specially went just to support Koh Yuan Wen, he said he'd be playing one of my favourite songs, Violent Kiss, ye i like it, but the fcking vocalist spoilt the fxcking song, she made me hate that song, further more, she so xialan, i swear. she sings like whale& has disgraced Eyes Set To Kill, cause ESTK has such a great vocalist, her voice is damn strong& HIGHHH, HIGHHHHH, THATS THE PART! HIGH &all i heard was a whale acing hardcore, ewww, bitch, fcker, loser, today is a bad day too, bye.

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:57:50 GMT

dear *, i didn't think that you'd be such a bastard, didn't think you'd actually do this kinds of things, thats why i understand whenever i meet up w you, you never seem to want to reply messages or theres always unread message, haha, now that ii know all about it, i don't think i wanna contact you anymore, its just too much, i'm just one human, i can't handle too much, what am i? superwoman? no, i'm just a HUMAN, i did not expect to know that you're such a flirt& liar, i'm so glad i've got friends that know you too, if not i'd be just blind& in the end everything will be just screwed, you're so heartless, i swear i hate you, bye,

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 16:15:33 GMT

today, i went town w cousins& sister, well, nothing much, i felt dead as i was walking, i felt dizzy& blind, i kept clinging on to someone while their walking, my mouth can't seem to close like last time, i kept trying to go down up escalators, NOT ON PURPOSE, i think i was in a daze for like hours, really, really hours& now, i'm currently missing someone, someone that sometimes make me feeeeeel, uh, upset, but i guess its okay, byebyebyebyebyebyebye.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 05:57:25 GMT

i've never felt so depressed in a long time, i guess today was just fxcked, everything was just fxcked, early morning, woke up late, already got scolding from mother about my eyebrow stud& everything, i alr said i can't unscrew the ball& i mean it, its not that i don't wanna take it out, so then mom scolded me like fxck. no mood, then didn't eat, went to school& thought about what she said, made me cry, like alot, but after that, everything seemed okay, then here comes recess& when i heard something really unreasonable i was damn pissed like as if it was my fault& i told Roy about it, broke down like some fool in the toilet, but after that, nothing, NOTHING, so, history, last period, * was being a real eh hole towards me, i really couldn't take it, i've never felt so weak in just one day, why does everyone depise me so much? is it cause i look like a freak? or maybe naturally seem like one? i'm sorry, it isn't intentional, i just felt like dying& i guess now, its much better but there're still things going on which i don't really wanna mention, bye.

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 14:36:49 GMT

today? today, nothing special, except that went Changi Beach w Nigel, lol, nothing much, just go there sit around, slack? o.o LOL, but it drizzled half way, oh ya, reminds me, while we were there, this lady just suddenly came& like she kept crying, like DAMN DAMN DAMN loudly. till now, i'm still wondering what happened, i think her boyfriend dumped her or something la, she looked damnnnnn emotional to the max, like reallyyyyyyy. she was alone, shouting at the sea, well, its common to see those around, lol, felt like walking up to her& asking her if shes alright, but only scared that she'd scold me for k-po-ing, so i guess the best was just to let her be. well, poor lady, wonder how shes doing now, well, cousins coming down tomorrow, DAMN DAMN excited, oh yay, oh yay, hope my moma would let me skip school, HAHAHA, lame excuse la, i know la, but i'd do anything to get outta loyang i swear. the people there are just damn fxcked. so, ya, thats it for today, nothing much happened like i said (; update tomorrow or so la, byebyebyebyebyebye.

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 07:07:33 GMT

i feel so small now, i feeling like i'm not, i feel like i'm just air, nothing special, nothing visible, nothing much. Never felt that empty before, i've never wanted to eat so much when i'm so full, i'm just stuffing myself w alot of rice, alot of soup& alot of fish, whatsup w me. i just feel like my soul needs to get out, i feel like a poser, loser, asshole, bastard, i feeel sooo, outta place, how i wish i could fly to another country& meet people who are like me& only has me& i have her/him as my only friend, then i wouldn't have to worry about people backstabbing me. how i wish i could just find someone who'll love me, for me& not for anything else. i should just apologise to people who've i'm bastard or people i care for, Sorry Roy, sorry Alice, sorry Nigel, sorry mom, sorry dad, sorry Estelle, sorry Lydia, sorry Fatin, sorry Deon, sorry Mae, sorry Gorgina, sorry Joey, etc, etc. i feeel so neglected, feel that i'm so out of love& patience. what am i suppose to do. i can't help it but be pushed aside& be so blind to just, forget about it, uh, what i'm thinking about now just can't be put into words. bye.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 14:06:27 GMT

today has been quite a sad day for me, gonna keep this short& simple, basically, i've been feeling quite down, i think its best if i don't mention it, i don't wanna get too much attention, its like so o.o oh well, just waiting for tomorrow, hope it'll be better, met up w nigel just now, just went around slacking, nothing much happened, LOL, uh, ya, shouldn't say anything else.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 10:14:30 GMT

i swear, he is getting more& more stupid BY THE DAY.

deon wants to be a vampire says:

wad u wan say

Erica says:

what you talking?

deon wants to be a vampire says:

nth

Erica says:

nothing la, your septum so small.

deon wants to be a vampire says:

i cannot put up

Erica says:

whathell -.-' you pierce at where?

deon wants to be a vampire says:

i think the thing to high

Erica says:

you pierce WHERE?

Erica says:

WHAT SHOP?

deon wants to be a vampire says:

Erica says:

ohmygood la.

Erica says:

what? new generation?

deon wants to be a vampire says:

Erica says:

ohmygood, even sicker.

Erica says:

how much you paid for it?

Erica says:

confirm free hand one.

deon wants to be a vampire says:

12 dollars

deon wants to be a vampire says:

i bagain

Erica says:

oh.

Erica says:

hope you cope well w the infections.

deon wants to be a vampire says:

haha

deon wants to be a vampire says:

i swear you're budget& stupid to the max, oh well, whatodo? xiia0bengz mah.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:22:27 GMT

omg, fucking pissed to the damn freaking max now, ya, Mae, i really abit pissed off alr, sorry ah, cannot tahan.

all the shit in me is copyrighted.
don't be a bitch-ish loser and copy me.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO COPY.

if you didn't really noticed, you sort of like just bought whatever i have la? okay la, maybe not intentional, but, how can so ZHUN got everything i want or AH, whatever la, enough can?

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:01:45 GMT

yay, in school now, passed alice her 2nd birthday present, huahua, last ngiht didn't feel like journal-ing cause i was uper pissed, shan't talk about that now, maybe when i go home or something la, meeting nigel later, thats all, feeling quite pissed off now, like really, well, ya, seeya'll later, bye.

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 18:25:29 GMT

its 2.12am now& my back hurts& i seriously hate that. okay, so gonna meet Roy later& find somethings we seirously seriously need, muhuhahaha, evil laugh :B okay, went out w alice tan just now, went to town then makan swensen's again, had Mac'N'chesse this time, so damn shiok, shared it w alice, cause i told her confirm if we order one each cannot finish one, cause the cheese damn filling, then true enough even though we shared we still felt full, hahha. but had some room for ice-cream, walao, we eat the ice-cream until damn jilat la the feeling, its JIlat, not JIAlat, LOL, like uh, eat the ice-cream until so sweet that you feel kinda weird. so ya, ate until damn full then went to Cineleisure, then Nigel suddenly tell me he was at Heeren, so went to find him for like 5 minutes, LOL, then alice needed to go home so i went for CG meeting instead huahua, made it just in time bfore they closed the cell metting X: oh well, had supper after that, went home around 11.30pm by the time i finished washing up was like 12.15am, waited for estelle to finish using the laptop around 1am, LOL, I'M SO PATIENT& OH YA! i suddenly have a crazy thing for playdough,i'm like going crazy about it, its like so fun! : DDD oh ya, my fisheye photos were developed, shit la, i think when i was rolling the film there was too much light exposure, so like the photos all damn screwed ): but there were some that were alive, LOL, but the ones i was really looking forward to look at were in great condition! :D just nice, so this time i'll close the cover& roll my film la (: good night, but i'm not gonna sleep now.

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 06:13:13 GMT

come to think of it, i seriously hate popular people& people with alot of friends, idk why eh, i just hate it, no matter who it is. i'm so glad that me& alice are just ordinary kidzzzZzzzzZZZZZzz, i really think i'm an idiot, my msn for no reason suddenly just log off then OMG, I JUST NOTICED I'M SUPPOSE TO MEET ALICE AT 2.30PM WHATHEFUCK, OKAY, WALAO, I JUST CALLED HER, CAN'T GET THROUGH WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THIS, QUICK MSN, DOWNLOAD QUICKLY!!!! DDDDDDD:::::::::: WHATHELLL. BYE.

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 05:13:13 GMT

i'm a true idiot, somebody kill me now!!

deon is fucking loser says (1:05 PM):

i noe la u hates me la

deon is fucking loser says (1:05 PM):

cause i step rite

Erica ('.') says (1:05 PM):

ya.

Erica ('.') says (1:06 PM):

why?

deon is fucking loser says (1:06 PM):

nth lor

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 18:02:45 GMT

yay, just came back not long ago from meeting Alice for dinner, i swear she gets freaked out of Saba fish heads, LOL, &ya, today we were like remincing the old times, like sitting around playing with playdough, LOL, we were quite serious about finding something nice to buy from Toys'R'us &in the end we finally found the PERFECT thing to buy, so we bought like a bottle of play dough! :D hahahahha, alice& i were so inspired from looking at rubber ducks so JUST NICE WITHOUT NOTICING, she bought yellow& i bought olange, then yellow for the body/head& olange for the beak, so like just nice, hahaha, then alice make hers like so damn fxcking cute la, mine like so big& fat ): oh well, took pictures, but all turned out crappy cause we were like laughing& lying down at the slide area, hahaha, like two stupid spastic kids. oh well, time for pictures! :DD

upon seeing the Saba fish head, huahua, i scooped it into her bowl, she screamed.

wow, tattoos, be cool when you want to, HAHHAHA, so cute (:

wow, she said this is me& nigel then she pointed at one flower somewhere& said it was her, HAHA.

yo, ducky :B

oh ya, forgot this part, i went home& made ginger& my sister, HAHA, all orange though o.o

YO, GINGER.

my sister, HAHAHAHHAHAHA, SO CUTE RIGHT?

just random, by me :DDD

{/edited}{/edited}

huahua, forgot about the pictures taken at the playground.

so happy with the heart a made for her, LOL.

so proud of her yellow dough, HAHA.

stand so far away from me ):

making fun of the heart saying that its mucus! >:B

yup, thats all, i'm grounded now, LOL, cause i was not home at like 12+ oh well, erica has a sad life = deprived life, byebye.

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 09:10:30 GMT

oh fuck, i'm fucking pissed with a fucking bitch, oh, it just might be you! (: ya, look at this, got this from a girl-i-know-'s blog, omg la, whatever i do or get she must get is it?! fxck this la, i swear siak, not gonna reveal her name for i-don't-want-problems-'s sake, urgh, aiya, if i got a huge back-up i just put her name la, but i don't have then idk whether she have, LOL, see this la kay. its under her WANTS section. those in bold& bigger sized font is the one i have/want& she bought.

♥ ~~red/purple skinny~~
♥ ~~white/black skinny~~
♥ ~~black/grey skinny~~
♥ green/eletric blue skinny
♥ ~~brown skinny~~
♥ ~~green~~/red shorts
♥ purple/eletric blue shorts
♥ light jeans blue shorts
♥ ~~tights~~
♥ ~~limited edition superman tee.~~
♥ cookie monster shirt
♥ more~~table cloth shirt~~
♥ ~~bf tee~~more
♥ ~~grey cardi~~
♥ red scarf
♥ ~~brown belt~~
♥ ~~new hand bag~~
♥ BUCKET BAG!
♥ neweyeliner/mascara
♥ ~~contact lense~~AGAIN
♥ ~~retro shades/sunnys~~
♥ geekSPECS
♥ ~~thick frame specs~~
♥ left~~3rd~~4th ear hole
♥ right~~2nd~~3rd ear hole
♥ left bone piercing
♥ tongue/anti-eyebrow piercing
♥ snake-bite/septum/smiley piercing
♥ 2 star tattoo at waist
♥ dye hair
♥ ~~blackPSP/whitePSP(slim)~~
♥ NIKON/CANNON/holgacam!

wow, how can it be like SO zhun/JUST NICE, whathell la, fxck this la, fxck you la, fxck shit la.

SORRY EH, CANNOT TAHAN.

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 08:37:21 GMT

i've been alone at home for a few hours now, didn't go for sports day. wasn't feeling in the best condition. i keep getting this song stuck in my head, sorry can't uplaod the song cause imeem is sucking, just like friendster, but actually friendster not so bad alr, LOL, oh well, if you guys really have nothing better to then this is the song name, Circle the Sky by Mychildren Mybride, that song is like freaking nice :B LOL, i'm so bored. most likely gonna find Alice& the rest at Tampines after they're done, huahua, then go makan or something :B this feel days i've been quite thrifty, which is quite cool cause i usually can't wait to spend money but its a different story this time :D suppose to meet that stupid Nigel one leh, then last minute cannot LOL, so stupid, oh well, its okay. I AM VERY UNDERSTANDING YOU KNOW. lol :B i'm so bored, okay, while i'll go entertain myself like now, i'll watch videos as retarded as Charlie The Unicorn i guess? well, i think thats what i'll do instead of indulging in heavy music, okay, bye losers.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 06:52:42 GMT

watxhing ginger run around the house cause shes in such a great mood, thanks to the beef jerkies, LOL, walao, this entire week i haven't go town, sucha miracle, haha, but i think most likely going this saturday w DEAR ALICE, (: ooh yea :B i've been saving up ALOT ALOT ALOT of money recently laaaaa, so ya, staurday i can like buy whatever i see BUT, must control :B oh yea, school today was normal; sucky. ya, i'm starting to really feel that my " friends " are really sucky like really to the max. because, they don't really care about my presences, dead or alive, i'm sure they'll only like find out after a week or so, LOL, true what, if any of you are reading this, i'm sorry but thats just too bad, i cannot TAHAN, cause you all are such bitches towards me, so ya. i love you all; sacarsticly. oh well, ya, not sure whether meeting Nigel later, if not i shall call Alice out to slack (: i miss her, LOL, but i dik where she went. waited in school for her like for quite awhile, but couldn't find her. kinda moodless now, feeling quite light headed after wondering whatsup with loyang posers, oh ya, reminds me, benny drew a pentegram on his ankle, omg, poser, LOL, i'm sure he doesn't even fxcking know whats the meaning. I miss quite a few people :B bye.

4846 days of tolerence.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 06:49:29 GMT

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 15:10:26 GMT

i've had enough already, i really have nothing else to say, she wouldn't listen to what i say, i DID NOT betray her i DID not side anyone, i can't copy paste the thing here so i just won't care, i'll just read it for myself, i feel hurt okay, i have feelings one okay, i know alot of people hate me okay, &this is the BEST part of it " this is the good shit i get. " I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING, MY PROBLEM MEH? honestly, i shouldn't speak up for anyone anymore, then NOTHING will happen to me, i'll still be fine, really FINE, i wouldn't feel so miserable/stress, my life has too many chaotic things going, i can't stand it, why is it always me, how is it that till now i'm still alive? how miraculous, lets see how long i'll last let me see how many days i've tolerated, 13 x 365 = 4745 days + 99 ( this year's days ) = 4844 days i've tolerated, wow, i didn't know i had so much tolerance, cool, see if i can last till my birthday then :B

4844 DAYS OF TOLERENCE.

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 08:10:43 GMT

went online& i saw one of the most scary thing i've seen, well, i'm not being mean but ya, hope she doesn't see this& sorry if you ever came across my journal (:

okay, that like so scary, i mean, whatsup w people piercing septum nowadays. &whatsup w the people asking me about my surface piercing? damn fxcked siak, like, uh eh :\ like eh, whathell, ah, can't find the words to say la, so ya, if i say i did it first then people follow then people will think like, whathell! AS IF she is the only one. lol, ah, not important la. but i especially feel more pissed off when people ask me whether pain, seriously, if you can find a piercing that is not painful, please tell mei'd like to crush your balls& for girls, uh, just go do some deep throat-ing :B i like cows.

today was just completely fxcked to the max, it just was, the people around me in 2A2 just has to get a life sometimes, don't be such dogs can? it just totally pisses me off la, but obviously, AS IF you would even care! OF COURSE NOT WHAT, he* is the fiercest what right? fxck you all like bootlickers, i love you all so much siak.